I'm in the middle of a long and terrifying night, and I need someone to confide in. Unfortunately, everyone is asleep, so I need to settle for you internet people. Today was lighting tech for Romeo and Juliet, and I didn't end up being able to start my homework until about 11. So I worked for about two hours and around 1 finally decided to go to bed and finish in the morning. Or at least that was the plan.
Some of you probably know that for the past two years or so I've been experiencing a somewhat embarrassing medical condition, of varying severity, which has pretty much baffled every doctor and specialist I've tried to see about it. Well, whatever it is, something I did tonight caused the symptoms to intensify dramatically, resulting in excruciating pain, which has kind of kept me from falling asleep. This was soon augmented by chills and nausea. I thought about calling the Wellness center, but I know they wouldn't be able to figure it out or diagnose me, so I thought what's the point? So I figured if I couldn't fall asleep anyway I'd do homework. Homework is hard to focus on when you're experiencing a lot of pain and anxiety.
Even had this not happened, tomorrow was shaping up to be one of the busiest days I had evver experienced. Now I'm going to have to do it on fivve hours of slee (and possibly sick to boot.) Stupid health problems.
I had an appointment with the latest specialist scheduled for Thursday anyway, so hopefully he'll be able to shed some light on this. But considering my past experiences, I'm not inclined to be terribly hopeful.
I'm very lonely right now. I really wish someone was awake to keep me company. I am in desperate need of a hug.
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